It exploded here around 11 and the people were...entertaining to say the least. And kids are just obnoxious, but I already knew that so moving on. I've counted 3 brides here meeting with either a wedding planner or a photographer. It reminds me that I need to save money, get myself a better camera and equipment so I could try my hand at that. I am good at taking photos but I know that there is a lot of competition and my crappy digital is not going to cut it with everyone having DSLR's. Though I do have my good film camera but that is something else all together at this point. No one wants film anymore, even though I think eve with the advancements in digital, they still lack some soul.
Next week is Natalie's wedding and I'm just in all out stress mode. People have asked me what I will do when it is mine and well, that is probably never happening so I'm not actually concerned about it. But the bachelorette party is supposed to be tonight and I"m not so sure I am going to go. I had good plans for it, because no one else could be bothered, but then they all decided they had no money to do it with. So now it's a stupid house party and I'm just annoyed. I'm okay with broken plans, I am, but for it to be a stupid house party at someone's house? That is just...annoying. At least we could go out to a bar. But no of course not. I'll probably end up going for a little bit so Natalie doesn't hate me but I really don't want to.
Other then that life is...life. I have a temp job that will probably be turning permanent sometime but I'm not so thrilled with that. The money sucks and it's a long drive but a job is a job at this point. I just would really like to catch a break, but then again so would a lot of people at this point.
I just feel incredibly stuck in a rut. I need a change, but I need money for that change. I'm doing okay with staying on top of bills but I can't get ahead of them at this point. Not to mention the fact that in all of this I still haven't gotten the chance to move out. So I can't even do that. I think if I could get out of the same house that I've grown up in would be helpful, maybe even just give me what I need at this point but that even can't happen.
And I know this is whiny but really I can't help it. I can't even be at home right now with the DSL out. Someone want to loan me some wi-fi?